Fear and loathing and wedding planning: working through your shit during the engagement #Advice#Philosophizing#lessons learned#wedding planning December 13 2016 | Guest post by Brittany Mancuso "Choose your love" poster Wedding planning is a strange, stressful, and often asinine experience composed of linen samples, justifying your newfound alcoholism, and vomiting a little when you find out how much stamps cost in bulk. However, the months leading up to your wedding are some of the most important months of your life; and not for the reason you may think. Your engagement has nothing to do with choosing the perfect flower arrangements, or fitting into that one-of-a-kind dress. It has nothing to do with cake tastings and picking a trendy color palette. Related Post I'm ready to get married… but my life situation isn't My partner's been proposing to me, almost as a game, on the semi-regular since we both realised that we were "it" for each other. I... Read more The engagement period, the period between "Yes" and "I do," is transitory — a life-changing transition. We spend a lot of time focusing on the actual day. It is, after all, supposed to be the "best day of your life." There are magazines, websites, and blogs dedicated to this monumental moment, but few people talk about the importance of simply being engaged. Marrying another person is a big deal. A lot comes with that commitment. The night of my proposal, I was in literal shock. I didn't cry. I barely smiled. It was beautiful. He was beautiful. Looking back, the moment brings tears to my eyes; but at the time, I was frozen. I was grateful. I was terrified. I was happy. I was in love. I was confused. I was full of so many emotions that I began to mimic a zombie (minus, you know, eating people). The engagement period is so important because, in layman's terms, you get to work through your shit. The engagement period is so important because, in layman's terms, you get to work through your shit. I was never going to run. I knew long before that evening that I was going to marry this man. My trepidation came from the simple fact that I was about to dive into the unknown. During our eleven-month engagement, I got to explore why I was so fearful and I got to think about what promises I could make to my future husband that were more meaningful than "for richer and for poorer." I got to work through my social anxiety and the debilitating fear that I felt every time I thought about walking down the aisle in front of a large group of people. I got to grow and strengthen both my soul and my mind. I began to live and breathe the phrase: "Love is a choice, not a feeling." I began to live and breathe the phrase: "Love is a choice, not a feeling." I started to befriend my fears. I started to realize that the wedding industry is built on a lie. Love isn't a fairy tale. "Happily ever after" isn't a thing. Marriage is hard because life is hard. It's important to remember that. It's important to know and accept that there will be days, weeks, and possibly months, where you don't like the person you're married to. It's important that in those moments you remember that love is a choice and that while you may not like this person, you can still choose to love them. Accepting that and coming to terms with it was the best thing I could have ever done for myself and for my relationship. Marriage isn't the finish line, it's the beginning. The work doesn't stop just because you have a new ring on your finger and can finally check off "married" on your tax returns. The engagement period prepared me, healed me, strengthened me, and made it so when I woke up as the bride-to-be on that beautiful Saturday morning, I was calm. I was sure. I was filled with love because I knew that I was about to marry someone who I could do this "marriage thing" with. I knew that, despite the problems we may face down the line, we will give it our all. Saying "I do" isn't about being 100% sure that you will be able to conquer every storm, it's about being 100% sure that you'll both give it your all no matter the outcome. Focus less on the flowers and more on tweaking your expectations. Are they too grandiose? Too impractical? Toss your naïveté aside and accept that your marriage will not always be perfect. Learn to choose your partner consciously every single day. Acknowledge his or her sacrifices and make it a point to always give your spouse the benefit of the doubt. Talk with your partner about what their love language is and what they need from you to create a lasting and strong foundation for married life. Finally, after you've done the work, enjoy the "big day." Take it in. Lock eyes with that person you agreed to forever with. Notice his eyes. Notice her smile. When he holds your hands, notice how warm they are. When she kisses you, notice how she means it with every fiber of her being. Store these memories in your mind and come back to them every once in a while. Vow to never forget those little moments and, when life gets in the way, remember that infectious smile and that all-consuming kiss; remember the way the fading sunlight turned those brown eyes into a deep golden hue and always, always, always remember why you said, "I do." Why it's totally okay to plan a wedding your way… even when you're told otherwise When I asked Brian to marry me, tranquil and quiet energy swirled around us. In all the perfection that this was for us, I didn't expect the whirlwind that would… Read More Reporter Name * Reporter Email * Original text Enter the original text here. Edited text* Enter your suggested copyedit here. Notes You can add a note for the editor here. * Required information. Fix Typo Guest post written by Brittany Mancuso I am a newlywed, cat mom, content marketer, and lover-of-all-things Harry Potter. My journey from girlfriend, to fiancée, to wife taught me more than I ever could have imagined; and I feel the need to share that journey with likeminded, Offbeat Brides! http://www.huffingtonpost.com/author/brittany-mancuso PREVIOUS Long distance turned marriage: meet these two Denver cuties at their dance party wedding NEXT Rings sorted! Harry Potter wedding rings for all four Hogwarts houses Show/Hide comments [ 4 ] I really needed to read this right now! I wish there were more "working through your shit" articles about the transitional, neither-here-nor-there phase of being engaged. Some stuff we are bringing up ourselves, other stuff is bubbling up around us, and families start to reveal their own shit to you as soon as you're engaged. We've been doing a lot of emotional heavy lifting! Thank you for sharing! Reply Great, like to see how the other half lives some times. AS a wedding photographer we hear about only a fraction of what leads up to the day. Like being part of a day in the life. thx Reply I admit that when my boyfriend proposed I didn't have the magical 'YES YES' moment. My chest tightened up and I felt like I was going to die from anxiety. Mind you, we've discussed marriage for over a year, I knew he had bought the ring, I knew he was going to propose sometime that weekend, and I was fine with it, until it actually happened. It's such a change and it's taken me over two months to feel comfortable saying 'fiancé', and being okay talking about marriage without freaking out about the future. it's nice to know that I'm not the only person to go through this, I had such guilt over my reaction and how I'm handling it. It's so much change, I don't even want to plan a wedding while I feel like this…so I am taking it super, super slow, much to slow for some people I know. Reply I hate change, so the engagement process was particularly difficult for me as well! Give yourself some time to process it all and remember that just because you're getting married, there is more to life than wedding planning. You can get stuck in the planning hole where you ONLY think about the wedding, which is stressful and exhausting. It's important to distance yourself from it every now and again and do something that isn't related to it. I was pretty overwhelmed throughout the whole process and I realized that a lot of my fears and anxiety were coming from taking such a great leap of faith. Marriage can be scary. Forever is scary to think about. Do what works for you because this is your journey. If taking it slowly is what is going to help you grow and is what is going to be the best thing for your relationship, do that. For the people who don't like it: they'll get over it! Reply Join the conversation Cancel Reply Your email address will not be published. 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